The moment I talk, the things I feared most is people walk away from me.
The frustration that people just don`t want to talk to you. Am I not worth it, no, it`s only because mother tougone speakers are too shallow to understand what I am about to say. Or, actually because people are simply in a hurry and don`t want waste your time in a slow motion conversation.
I am not a freak, I undersdand exactly what you mean (maybe not all the time since I couldn`t catch what you are saying if you are speaking too fast)
The fluent flow of language is what bond people together, the moment I showed the unfamilarity, they just point the point for me to walk away. Actually we can bond, I will try my best to connect with people around.
Obviously not everybody is good at every kind of language, is there such big a barrel that can seperate people from understanding each other.
When it comes to movies, I thought everyone share the same right to enjoy what is projecting on the big screen.
But after all the things on the screen are just imagination and sections of life, if I don`t want to be a loser in real life and keep myself confined in the small piece of screen in front.
Only the ability to communicate with others and absorb knowledge is admirable, because everybody is constantly learning the new things from people around. The web pages, screens and books are just the dead knowledge stored from the living people.
I guess what`s most important is the ability to communicate with the people around and get the most out of the communication. Instead of staring the book or the screen to suck things out of the media. Why don`t we open our mind to operate our own mind and observe, analyse, learn from people around, learn from the things around.
Why get discouraged at the first place if your first language is not English, you are supposed to have a learning curve to get used to what is the best way to express yourself. The feeling of being separated is just temporary. The most important thing is to learn and observe and open your mind and learn fearlessly.
There is are great world out there open for me to explore and learn.